Monday, March 27, 2006
Dotxz...skool ain happy with me no more...biology, chinese, english, history teacher probably hate me...recount...
Last week Biology
At klaxx taking pledge
Me: *speeds up pledge then put hand down*
Teacher: That boy in the corner stand up
Zhi Rong: Me?..
Teacher: No the boy next to you..
Me: Arh?...
Teacher: You stand for the whole period...
Later...
Teacher: You know why you are standing right?..
Me: No...
Teacher: You weren't taking the pledge and you were playing with the table cover...no respect to your country...
Me: Arh?...
Next period History
Teacher: Min han you go stand behind
Me: Arh?...Again?...
*Some people laughing*
Well...todae...Literature was first...don't think there was anything interesting...except the debate of grandpa and jia cai...zhi rong was saying..."Oldies forever" and "Oldies make the world go round"...lol...
Had crush afterwards...as in safety on the internet...
Recess....was informed by sadiq that he went to my blog?...dotxz...didn't think he even surfed the internet....now hamid, anwar and sadiq says my blog is emo and depressing...izit?...
Maths...nothing new...
Chinese....i really think the teacher hates me...had to read a section of the paragraph in my textbook...after reading...teacher said i had 10 words i didn't know..each word -2 marks...full marks was 10...so i had a -10/10...the first person to get negative for reading....o.O...
Lunch...just ate...
English....teacher also probably hates me...
Teacher: Remember to bring english textbook on thursday as you need it for E-learning, allow me to repeat, Remember to bring english textbook on thursday as you need it for E-learning, allow me to repeat, Remember to bring english textbook on thursday as you need it for E-learning. Min Han what did i just say?..
Me: Er...to bring english textbook on thursday?..
Teacher: Why?...
Me: Er...
Leon: *whispers* for E-learning...
Me: For E-learning
Had homework time and 1 hour of maths after that...boring....my thoughtx ain't getting any new ideas....guess i will be going...
shoot! 7:22 PM
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
Sianxz....feeling so tired lately...guess this is wad it normally feels to change from holiday mood to skooling mood...
Zhi Rong finally came back from his 3 weeks in hospital for his eye infection...now he look lyk he got a punch right in his eye...dotxz...
Had history first...After so long we finally got back our test results...dam...only got 6/15...badly done...i got a feeling this year i ain't gonna get to choose wad i wan for next year...still got to buy the skool magazine...$7 each...ouch...
Science...starting biology...some of the others were sad that the human reproductive system was next term...biology would be like sex ed...O.o...at least i got till next term to enjoy science while i still can...
Music...gonna choose to play balled?...dunoxz....veri sianxz...still gt muscial coming...compulsory....
Chinese...ting xie....gt a 100...=P...next week got zao ju...then 4/4 got test...i still hate chinese the most...
English...did the points for introduction and conclusion...nth interesting after that...
Homework time...already done my homework...just took 1 piece of paper to doodle on...leon...if you are still wonderin wad i written....gonna type most of it out...
"Life ain't perfect.
Nothing shall ever go right,
Everything shall go the way it ain't suppose to.
When you hope for something good,
You shall get something bad.
Life ain't gonna be kind to you.
Not once, not ever.
Life shall never be good,
It always finds a way to bite you back.
Life sucks.
It's a backstabber disgused as something good.
People who try to make the best of life are going in a trap."
"Fate decides my path.
Everything is fated.
Life, death, love, hate...
Everything is under fate.
Sorrow, happiness,boredom...
Feelings which humans feel,
All are under fate.
Fate has choosen my path.
The path...of death
The dark path, where evil is present.
I am walking alone on this path.
The only sounds are the beating of my shallow heart.
The only people are the shadows surrounding.
Sometimes I wish someone would find me.
Until then...
I walk alone."
Happy now?...got it typed out...duno why i wrote that...duno how i thought of that...maybe true...maybe false..that ain't for me to decide...
Gonna stop here...no updates to my thoughtx....bbx...
shoot! 5:46 PM
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
Todae had maths klaxx...i was suppose to wake up at 6...woke up at 7 instead...too tired?...
Went to skool and saw the rest of the klaxx in the canteen waiting...most doing the quesitons...went up to klaxx latr...lol...most ppl was hoping a soh nvr come...jialat realli come back...nt bad...he brought lollipops....finally..candy day..
In klaxx...after a while...
Me: Mr soh u gt bring the biscuits?...(told him to bring 2 weeks ago)
Anwar: Yar mr soh you got any biscuits?...
Lol...anwar was also interested for the biscuits...lyk last year...=P...mr soh brought 1 whole container of it..i ate half and anwar ate the other half...we didn't eat breakfast...lol...tasted nice..
A soh latr went staff room take for us...mm...tasted nice...
A soh: Here the biscuits *hands to me*
Anwar: *stretches forward from the chair* give me some...
Lol...didn't tink he would be lyk tt...i wished i could have more of the biscuits...had to share with the klaxx....sighxz....wad can i say?..i love biscuits...latr hamid had the rest of the few...i was fed up and jux went to take it...hamid was lyk...rush to a soh to return...telling him nt to giv me...
Me: *takes biscuits back to seat*
A soh: Min han i tink u jux finish it up lar...
Me: *Gd news to my ears*...*smiles*...
Latr had the break...i jux went out for the 1st few mins looking down...tinkin...latr went back in and saw they were havin tt candy day...so jux take my hasre lor...8 lollis...tooth decay...lol...
Others came back and mr soh had jux reloaded the biscuits...mm...round 2...
Me: *eat a few biscuits*
Anwar: Now min han..learn to share...*takes 1 biscuit*
the biscuits jux went around the whole klaxx...sighxz..i wanted more...
Went off latr...lena n pak siong were trying to get ppl to go kbox with..in the end nvr go..lena lyk so angry...felt sorry...
At home...nth to do...went to tink agn...sry ppl...no new thoughtx...tinkin over the same thing...
Gotta go sleep now...bbx...
shoot! 10:26 PM
Saturday, March 11, 2006
Been a while since i posted...let's see...
4th-5th march
Woke up with a fever...kept trying to bring my fever down...drink liyang...barley...drink until now i sick of it...
6th march
Didn't go skool todae...had a fever...stay home whole day trying to bring it down...missed lit play...
7th march
Came back to skool...sighxz...after nt going to skool for 1 day...you feel lyk doing it over n over agn...found out ytd lit play samuel's rape scene was funny..sighxz...too bad i missed it...pe i jux sat there in 1 corner watched others dance..nt lyk i wanted to anyway...got scolding from teacher for nt telling her straight away y i cnt do pe..=.=...didn't go for ncc todae...was still tired...=P
8th march
Jux went for skool normally...history,science,music,mother tongue,el,IS..nt much to say abt...cept tmr is social ediqute...my worst nightmare..
9th march
Todae had science...then history...formed groups for project...i m with nicolas,samuel lee,geraldo,hong jie...meeting them on mondae for land..=P...and tues for project...
Had alive after that...then maths...mr soh was at reservice...so we had mr gohel (go to hell) to teach us...ok lar...didn't realli lyk him though...
Homec....social ediquete...my worst nightmare has arrived...went on to put on my tie...came back saw all the gal putting/put on their...scarves?...dunoxz...thought billie was wearing cotton wool..lol...went in latr...dam leon pangseh...nvr come..i had to pull chair for billie?...i felt so degraded....nicholas had to do for ming si...then gt tt tok gentleman/lady...etc. billie needed to go serve the soup...so i had to pull chair for her agn...she wanted to purposely keep standing?...o.O...
Billie: I keep standing wan?
Me: Don't you dare...
had mistrone soup...nt tt nice...they had lots of crap inside...veges...our water somemore gt that lemon inside...taste dam disgusting...had spaghetti after tt...n chicken...and ice cream...mm...too bad i didn't get chocolate...
to those hu think i can be a gentleman...tkk...i will prove u wrong...i nvr wan to do that agn...2 years to grad nite b4 having to do this agn...o.O...
10th march
Duno y todae dam tired...so dam sleepy...went to skool go for chinese....keep falling asleep in klaxx....in science nt as tired...but fell asleep at least twice...todae last day with a toh...bb a toh..
english...fell asleep at least 3 or 4 times....
Lies head on table
Syafiqah: Tired huh?
Me: Uh huh...*continues lying on table resting*
Maths...mr go to hell agn...todae suppose to have test...he duno anything abt it..latr on then noe gt test after holidays...got back my results...badly dropped...27th in klaxx...how sad...though...most ppl said smth wrong with homec marks...tink most ppl shocked when i told them i 27th...hamid was anyway...
Latr hamid came my house..played a bit then he went home...sighxz...still veri tired...
Slight update to my thoughtz...
1. Wad do i do with my life now?..i don't go after her anymore..i gt nth to go after...
2. Wad do other people tink of me?...an idiot?...emotional?...
3. Am i emotional?..
4. Why i cnt be a gentleman...the reasons...agreed...
5. am i a common hate among ppl?..
Going off now...wan to play other things..
shoot! 9:51 PM
Saturday, March 04, 2006
Damn...
Sick...gt fever...rose up to 38.8 degrees max for todae...sighx...sry tricia and others....sick until lyk this...cnt do lit project...jux tell me wad to do on mondae if i m ok...
Fever been going up and down..1 moment its 37.5...some time later its 38+...sighxz...dad said my history of high fevers has always been going up n down lyk roller coaster...hard to take care of me...o.O...*rmbs mich n jesscia giving me my medicine at p2/p3...*...(was a dno how to take care of myself type of person)...
Hm...dengue is suppose to go up n down?...if it is...then...hopefully i don have it..or i will be joining ppl in another world...sighxz...parents been worried about me...i hate having fevers...
Ytd the only thing i can rmb quite well...was in the hall b4 neville's wushu...we saw gt the high jump things all set up le..so jux jump lor...i lost my touch...i can do 120...i noe i can..but i jux nvr lift legs properly...sighxz...i kept crashing...suicide dive..lol...dno hu crash into it then the pole breaking?...o.O...nt me tts for sure...tricia wanted to try...tink she did 80 or 90...4got...jia you...
Sighxz...i wonder wad caused this fever..my emotions?...being pessimistic etc.?...or a virus which somehow entered my body...dunoxz...if its my emotions..i better start learning to control it...
Currently 38+...the panadol extra which my dad bought sure is strong..eat 1 feel dizzy le..slept most of the day away...now don feel veri tired...
Went for tuition jux now at 3+...gt jian bao done..left english newspaper...don feel lyk doing it...
Whole day how i felt lyk quite random..1 moment cold...another hot...
Some more questions to think about...
1.Wad happens when some1 dies?...Would their memory be gone 4eva?...or would their soul still be there?...
2. Why do i have mild colour blindness?...
3. Why izit tt around my heart area aches sometimes?...
4. How is my friend doing?...
5. Hua qiang said tt wearing glaxxex would slowly increase eye's degrees and contacts would keep eye degrees constant...mom said tt contacts are troublesome....so how?...
Gotta take another panadol soon...hopefully i won't feel so dizzy...
shoot! 10:43 PM
Thursday, March 02, 2006
Hm...questions going around in my head...
1. why do i care about my friends?...why should i carry their burden?...
2. why does hamid call staring into blank space "trance"?...
3. why izit tt when i go into "trance"...i have nth on my mind...it feels lyk my mind jux drifted away...
4. why does hamid say the mark on my neck is a lovebite?...
5. why must we do tt social thing in homec?...being a gentleman...cannot imagine it...
6. do i realli have to wear formal at sec 4 graduating nite?...i hate those clothes...
7. why do some people say i m more tanned while others say i m not?...
8. why do i feel that i can trust hamid?...
9. why do i have a lyking for archers n thieves?...
10. why is life so complicated?...
11. how does anwar tink of those questions which he gives hamid to tink over...
12. wad do people tink of me?...
13. why do i have a tendacy to be irritating?...
14. why do i hate being relied on?...
15. why r galx lyk tt?...sometimes tell them the truth they tink its a lie..n vice versa...
lots of things to tink about...sighx
Science..duno...4got..gotta go for test after skool....almost fell asleep in klaxx...sadiq woke me back to my senses...
History...spilt into groups to make questions...lol...last minute then finished it...tok too much...
recess...was so relax until thought skool over n i was tinking of leaving?...
alive...nth much...bored...
maths...same as alive...hate boring days....need to at least get something to tink about..
A soh: Leon you down 30...
Leon: But min han asking me wad i write in the notes...
A soh: Then you 2 share...down 15 each..
Me and leon do 15 push-ups each...
Me:o.O
lunch...at last few minutes was jux staring into blank space...hamid was wondering if i was going into a" trance" jux lyk anwar...anwar had to wake me up..i felt lifeless in tt "trance"...
Homec...got back holiday hmwk...gt 35 outta 40..nt bad...sianxz...next week need to be gentleman..i sure fail de...gotta get myself a tie...zzz...hate it...
lit..joined neville etc. ....latr billie and josephine went to yijun group?...eng lee was lyk..."go employ some1 from lena group"..lol...
went to do science test..lol...teacher also heck care...we go discuss together...lol...
sighxz...too many questions...too few answers...
shoot! 6:28 PM
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Sianxz...go back to skool after camp jux over...
Borrowed anwars maths textbook and tried to learn tt new change subject thing for maths...managed to learn it...=P
History...guess its ok...though..i don rmb wad we did..hm..short term memory realli is effective on me...
Science...its ok...had to draw tt concept thing on how light refracts in a prism...ok...so i m the only 1 hu got the concept rite..i didn't draw it neat or draw the arrows or even the normal...ok..no insult needed ok a toh?..as long as concept correct ok le..
Recess...hm...i tink i m gonna stop using hamid as a support le...he seems irritated enuff as it is from the questions from anwar...
Music...teacher was jux singing...lol...nt nice...teacher was jux "teaching"...and we were jux either listening...playing the piano or...using the internet...she doesn't realli care?...dunoxz...don realli care...as long as nobody say..i should be safe...had zhi rong to say "mary had a little lamb" on her mic though..lol...
Chinese...test...sianxz..nvr study...won't make any difference even if i did...wrote lots of crap here crap there...last bit when we were suppose to describe smth...i wrote..."ni shi tian cai, ni she le zi ji wei le wo men jin bu" (You are a genius, you sacrifice yourself just for us to improve)...hey..i was outta ideas...
Lunch..gave back anwar's book...almost 4got abt it..lol...sry anwar...
Maths...went through the new thing learnt...went for independent study latr...
independent study...nth to do..lol..finished hmwk...chinese i could not do yet...
More maths...sianxz...went through maths test...lost 2 marks...sadly..
Hm...wish my friend gd luck in going steady with tt gal...all the best to u..
shoot! 10:12 PM